*NORLIN `LIIN
*FIFTEEN
*DECEMBERR BABYY
*ATTACHEDD
*SENSIITIIVE
*FULL OF LAFTERR
*TALKS ALOTT
*LOTTS OF KRAPPS
__SHEE LURVESS]+]
+ HIIM
+ ALLAH
+ CLOX FWENS
+ TWENTYY-FIVE.FIFTEEN
+ ACCOUNTS.ENGLISH
+ BLUE.BLACK.PINK.WHITE
+ BOOKS.SPENDING TYM WIT HIIM
+ LAFIIN
+ TALKIING KRAPPS
+ ACCESSORIIES.MAKE-UPS
+ SHOESS.BAGGS
+ SIMPLICITYY
__SHEE WANTTS]+]
* M0RE tiime wiith hiim
* lastt longg wit hiim
* LOTSS OF NEW BLOUSES
* more moneyy $$
* mascara
* less slackiing
* do SERIOUS studyiin
* pass all common testt
* impr0ve M0RE in my english!
* get good gradess 4 N level
* my familyy to b happy and baq as n0rmal
* getting less than 5 points to go sec 5
* control my feeliings
heyy.. its been quite a long time since i lastt update right? well... nothingg...
anywayss... tomorrow is my birthdayy parttyy... and i feel like.. no one seems so excitedd aboutt it.. exceppt me.. i know that sometime i can be pathetic.. but.. i mean its true... no one does... maybe they did.. but justt to make me happyy... so... whats the use right? everybodyy is busyy doingg their own stuff... and they dont seem to give me justt a lil bit of attention.. justt for this month? haix.. i dont know...
i feel like... i always make people irritatedd... expecially dear.. i know im being selfish... i am selfish... but... argh! i dont know... i need helpp for now... dear is busyy with his stuff... and the last few dayss.. i hardlyy chat with him in msn.. well.. yarh.. he's busyy of course.. but what i can do right? he doenst belongs to me completelyy... i justt wish i couldd talk to someone aboutt this... since dear is so busyy with his workk.. he's like ignoring me...
i dont know.. my parents... haix.. doesnt give me the freedom and privacyy... even though im going 15.. i really am jealous because mostt of my friends can go outt with their friendss... go shopping and watching movie together... how i wish my life is like them... why cant my parents give the freedom? because of what i did last time? fine if they dont trust me... but at least.. give me privacyy... i know that they want me to be safe... but... i feel so... stuckedd at home...
even if i can go outt... i alwayss go out with my parents... isnt it the same? because evrytime i want to buy something.. i have to use my moneyy... so. .why cant they just let me go out with my friends? i cant understand them nowadays... i know that i still rely on them.. but at least give me some freedom? justt a bit of it? i wantt to be like my friends... even my dear has freedom sometimes... unlike me.. who always is stuck at home during the holidays... how i wish i could go studyy with my friends... i realised that i felt so terrible this year..
i cant even get a job next year... why cant i? argh! i feel so stressed... this thing is inside me... and i dont wantt to tell anyone aboutt this because... i dont want them to lnow aboutt this.. everybodyy got their problems.. so.. its just sometime.. problems are just left to be it is.. not to be solved..
behind my smiles and laughter... inside my heart.. nobody knows... nto even dear.. i dotn want him to know aboutt it... i too want the truth.. i hate people telling lies.. just simply because they want to make me happy.... i hate thatt! i try my veryy bestt to control my sensitivityy... but cant anyone understand how hard it is to? i dont know...... i just simply hate myselff....
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*naviigatiions on the starss
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